A new year has come.

2006


Will things become better or worse?

I am just so worried and scared. somehow, i wish the time could stop. I miss 2005 so much. As the clock turned to 0:01, I knew that I would regret. 'cause something got to be done before 2006! I just knew it. It had to be done and it must, so that i wouldn't have to feel guilty about it. But its juz irrevocable, once its done cannot be undone. Time cannot be reversed, too late. I knew everything will deteriorate to the very worst. I dream of changing it for the better. just dream.


My heart aches whenever the past memories barge into my mind, one slide after another, memories of what i have done, I regretted so much.

A nightmare.

Again, I can feel the same tremor of loss and fear that assailed me last time. The time when i finally became conscious enough to cry.



Calm down please. sigh.

I used to be able to pluck up my very own courage to face difficulties. But now, I don't have the confidence to try...to go for it. As I said, a coward like me, I realized that i am scared of losing, that's why i daren't to try. Especially after the lost battle in 2005.




can someone spare me the courage to stand up again?



trying!
trying!
trying!


TRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!