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Went Ice skating today with some of my classmates at Kallang Leisure park. Fun. But my feet hurt now..

Fell and kena dragged by Cynthia for more than 3m!!!!! my pants were completely drenched.

Shall blog more later. For now..some thoughts and feelings =)



I am the Mini Mouse =) waiting for someone.




I love dolphin. Pls save them. Stop eating them =(



I wish. I could move into this fairyland. Its simply beautiful and sadness doesn't exist. I wish. badly.



我相信，晴天娃娃能带给我一些安慰。


LOL! Oh well, DAMN FUNNY. but i doubt i will do that. Lets exercise more of your muscles.



Good night.

June Common Test is officially over! hmm well, I did very badly. I think its my first ever worst results.. I don't even have the confidence that I can pass more than 1 subject. I thought econs and bio were bad. but they aren't that bad. Math and chem just killed me. sigh, I am prepared to get special attention from all the tutors. Oh well, no exaggeration. Hmm consider the amount of effort put in, the lack of practice and me being not very smart, I deserve whatever I will get for this test.

hais, move on.. and jiayou jinyi! =)

Its gonna be holiday till Tuesday and I shall face reality by then.
For now, ENJOY TO THE MAX!!!!!!!! ^^

Haha here's a few funny scenarios:

Mr Fazli (sms): Jinyi, sorry you dont have to get quarrantined, malaysia is not affect. my bad.
Jinyi: hais, so sad. why isnt malaysia affected?! haha. just kidding =)
Mr Fazli: haha there is still some days left for you to do something about it.. (I AM KIDDING TOO)
Jinyi: Ohh I get your hint =)

HAHA!

First day of school after June holiday, Mr FAzli stepped into the class.

SOmehow, there was lots of coughing in the class..

During temperature taking, everyone, for the first time, was so keen to get sick. Jolene was like, " omg 37.5! one more0.1 degree and she can be sent out and may be missing JCT! haha, Everyone was hoping desperately ... but too bad!

Then,
Mr Fazli ( after seeing so many people wishing for high tempt): Actually high fever is not the most serious symptom, there are other symptoms as well. Coughing is actually a symptom worse than fever...

and then everyone in the class started coughing!

hahaha!

Oh well, whatever it is. For now I DONT WANT TO GET FEVER. I want to enjoy e remianing 4 days of holiday before I get screwed up by the tutors.

Anyway, pray that H1N1 doesn't mutate. and everyone gets well soon.. Pray for the world =)



Activities going on!
Saturday, class outing!
Sunday, going to watch AYG match with Edwin =)
Monday, Pri school gathering/ PW meeting!
Tuesday, SHOPPING with Aisyah! yoohoooo!
Wednesday, __ *save some tissues*

PANICK!

Aaahhh Hell for me now. Only started studying this week and I seriously doubt I can finish.. I haven't touched on Bio and Math! How dead can I be?

Econs is really HELL for me. ggggggrrrrrrr. I desperately need tuitioon..

*panicking*

Oh and why isn't Malaysia a H1N1 affected country?!!!! I just complained to Mr Fazli. Grr.

*move on*

Tjc Swim team =)


CG18/09 Outing


Went to Adnaan's house to play! fun! =)

Lovely photo from Rachel =D



You were happy. You were really satisfied. You felt blissful. At times, you thought everything was fine and things went well.. You smiled and laughed like you were the happiest girl in the world. However, just when everything went perfectly fine, a part of yourself, unknowingly, tried to shrink away from the rest of the world.

You are afraid. You are uncertain about how you feel. Conversations turn into a cacophony of voices.. You feel troubled yet trying your utmost best to sustain your usual smile.

You feel strange. You just somehow lose the ability to meet anyone's eyes, yet you have to. Looking into those sparkling eyes and trying to pretend looking into a distance of emptiness.

You fail to understand expressions, words, feelings and everyone else's behaviour..

You realise that something is wrong yet you can't help it. Deep down, you let out a silent scream and begin to break down.

Why? What happened?

Perhaps.. you have turned into an alien?

finally blogging

Oh my.. This blog is so dead.. =/

Yesterday got to be dismissed earlier as Friday's schedule was swapped with Thursday's schedule. And then, something horrible happened.

While I was on my way walking past a block to my block from the bus stop which I alighted, I saw some policemen.. and then when I looked closer, I saw a dead man lying on the floor.. there was a pool of blood.. I was shocked and stunned for a moment. The sight was simply gory and gross.. omg.. O.o I still can't get over with that scene.. hais

Well, I found out that that man actually committed suicide.

Why why why? why would he do such a stupid thing? Though we aren't related, I feel a tinge of sadness for his death.. Was he mad? or was he just in such an excruciating pain that perhaps death is a better way to end this? I seriously don't get why must people commit suicide? Its really a silly and selfish act.. =( But is there really a situation where problems can't be solved and that we are forced to such desperation for death?

His parents must be crying their hearts out now.. =(








Swimming nationals is over. It's time to get back to studies. I have SO MUCH things to catch up.. those work is like endless and I never seem to be able to finish them. aarghh..

Wanted to post some pictures regarding swim nats and victory dinner but i find myself rather moody.. Well, I don't know why.

Studies is one thing I am not coping well these days. But I am not worried because I know many of my friends are struggling as well. Well, I guess its college life. Just get used to it ba.. Dozing off during lectures is a big problem to me now. haha. i have to find some ways, seriously to wake myself up. rubbing my eyes with hot chilli??? Perhaps.

Swimmming. I am glad that I have improved. hmm looking forward to another intensive training though I can't deny that I feel a slight phobia for it. haha. Oh whatever, just go for it =)

FAmily. Recently my parents are kinda actively involved in some outdoor activities which they signed up for.. oh gosh. I feel kinda detached from them since I am always busy with my stuff and so do they. Well, that bond.. it is never the same like before. I feel hmm.. sad. the more negative I feel, the more I would try to cover up those feelings. and somehow, I have fallen into an abyss of ignorance.. and then, things aggravate and perhaps to a point of no return.

I know something is wrong. I know very well that I have to fix this relationship up. I know that we still care for one another. I know that I really have to do something about this.. We just stop interacting somehow.. I know and I know.. but I am doing nothing..

It's the arrogance in me that is killing me.

And then. There is someone who I have been thinking of. It's stupid. I know it. I find the thought rather absurd and yeah, admitted that it is simply an impossiblity. hmm yiyan said that I always fall for the minority.. Alright, I guess it's true.. Ironically, I hate to know that someone has unknowingly caught my heart and I have lost half the battle. What would happen if he knows? Not that I am not into crushes and infatuation and whatever u call that. It is just not the time. cause' it just gives me lots of distraction.. and distraction is simply annoying. aargghh~

Control. That is what I need now to settle those feelings.
Arrogance is what i desperately need to get rid of now.


Here. Everything turns topsy-turvy. How I wish I could run away..
How I wish I could stay away from this bustle and hustle of modern life and live with my loved ones in a small little cosy cottage in a countryside somewhere segregated from the globalising world.. Hmm.. I guess this is more like dreaming of myself in a fairytale or yearning for a miracle to happen.

Please, let the rain cease and the rainbow shall appear.

Random

My swim team =)


When the going gets unbearably painful,
When it feels as though I cannot pull another stroke,
When my brain pounds forth the message to stop,
My heart shall fail me not.

For i know
There will always be my team.
Amazing people who will be at the end,
To hold me when I fall.

By Penny, my beloved swim mate.

I really love this poem, it says exactly how I feel.












Endless work. Too much fatigue. Yet they keep me alive.
More exhaustion. More setbacks. Yet I am motivated.
Something is pushing me onwards,
Yet something is holding me back.
I struggled and drowned and got reincarnated.
That is how the cycle goes.
That is how crazy life is now.


Gosh, stop coughing please.
and get back to reality.

Trying

Just a short & quick post.

This week is okay.. what a good description.

Swimming rocks. My swim mates rock too.. I think I start to like them. But here, everything is just a beginning. Who knows how things will go later?

Whatever it is, I must thank Rachel and Penny a great deal for comforting me. Haha cause' swimming training is not totally pleasant. though it has its fun part. I begin to feel that I am really bad at it.. But obviously I am not going to give up.

I guess I just have to get used to jc life. It's as tiring as last time when we had vigorous campcraft trainings 3 to 4 times a week.. My muscles ache. My whole body gets exhausted after every water training. Imagine swimming for laps without stopping and you feel like coughing every now and then. Itfeels good in a way that ur muscles are burning.. However, knowing that you're not good, I get really disappointed.. It's like back to the first few trainings of campcraft.. And then I get depressed easily.. Thinking of doing it well seems almost impossible, again. Oh well, I just don't get used to it. So after I reach home from training, my next destination is usually the bed. Then I wake up early to do some tutorial..

Time management for the first 2 weeks: Bad.

Haha. Guess I need some planning hur.

Thats' all for this post. Tomorrow gonna meet my CG friends to do some english Fair skit. hope it will be fun and successful. =)




p.s ahhhh the Iljimae song makes me feel like crying.


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Congrats TkNpcc for obtaining the Gold Unit this year! After so many years, we finally got a Gold.. It's still quite unbelievable... Sir Kelvyn said that its because of us... Oh my.. how can this be possible??? I thought we were the worst batch hur? What an irony.

Busy schedule ahead!

OMG. I am SO LAGGING BEHIND.. I have no time to blog so many things and I am actually skipping some parts of them.. hais.

From today onwards, I guess I am gonna have less time to blog.. really..

Okay, First of all, it's about TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE!!

I am beginning to love this school, the school campus! (Though it is old but it's the largest! yoohoo~) my OG10 friends from Zandor! And of course, my civic group (class) 18/09! YOU GUYS ROCK! =D



I am starting to love my CG.. Because the girls are so cute! Somehow we always had a conversation.. and the things we talked about are OMG. Hmm.. better don't reveal here haha. But it's all Girls stuff you know.. haha. During Civics period, our tutor came late and he thought he had to get us to introduce ourselves but by then we already knew one another quite well and we had many fun games! =D

All in all, I really hope that we can get along even better in the near future! Also, I just received my new schedule ( school time table) and it's OH MY GOSH.. sigh. I guess I have to be so hardworking now.. No more slacking.. and I guess I have made a VERY GOOD DECISION on not taking up MTL. =D

Next, it's about PDP ( personal development programme) it's supposed to be CCA but our school wants it to be PDP. I had a hard time choosing my PDP, seriously. Even though I got selected for floorball..but now I have made up my mind. I AM JOINING swimming for sure =) No SC or HC for me because I want to concentrate on this cca. =) I am afraid I won't be able to cope if I were to run for SC or HC... though I did get tempted to apply... hais. Perhaps I can choose another cca as well, a more relaxing one. Perhaps some club...

And if you were to ask me why is it swimming.. well, I really don't know. Perhaps cause' I love swimming a lot? I guess once I am in swimming team I am really going to train really HARD, because I am SUPER LOUSY. -.- No more thinking about how tanned and ugly I could become, or how broad my shoulders would be in the near future.. I JUST wanna join swimming.. haha. Even my parents are trying their best to convince me not to join.. oh well.... hais..

Okay. That's all about my life in Tjc.

Happy belated birthday to Jinyi and Happy late VAlentines' day! haha.

Sweeeeeeet 18th here I go! HOHO~ looking forward to 21.. =D

THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH to all those people who have greeted me and who have given me presents! I really love them! Thanks lots! I am not going to name them all due to the lack of time. But believe me, I really really really appreciate them .A LOT.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Special Thanks:

Ningli for the drawing! I really love it.. BEST FRIEND FOREVER. =) She's really someone who perhaps understands me more than I do about myself... though I always tried to defend myself.. O.o

Saileong for the hand-made cardboard thingy! haha! really touched =)

Audy! For the handmade flowers! OMG.. I almost cried when I saw it.. thanks..=)


Benny! For the call even though you are in Australia! =) MISS U SO SO SO MUCH. =( and I was sooooo sad I almost cried when I received his call BECAUSE I couldn't recognise his voice.. =(


Yongxi, Fendy, Audy and Gwen for the outing cum celebration! Believe me, I was really touched.. maybe I don't show it but.. hmm.. yeah. I am k! The rating for this plan/surprise was a failure but honestly, I can feel your sincerity! THANK YOU SO MUCH! Friends Forever =)


Haha Yongxi carrying a PINK BACKPACK! LOL.

we went out to play at East Coast Park yesterday which was Valentines Day. Well, so many tents were set up. I guess it would be super hell noisy in the middle of the night hur? HAHA! =P

My sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet parents celebrating birthday with me. They wanted to buy me a present but I insisted not to.. WELL, my birthday.. it was not my day. It was their day. Serious.

And yet they were celebrating for me.. I didn't apologise regarding how I feel but I did feel horribly guilty..

I love my mum and dad! =) Thanks for bringing me to this world! LOVE U MUAX!

Last but not least, I went out with my primary school friends last week. We celebrated Xumin, Titus as well as my birthday together because our birthdays fall on 11, 12, and 13! haha. LOVE THEM. =)

My darling daughter Kathryna! Mummy loves u and thank you so much for the album! (same to Titus and Timothy!) The album is the BEST ALBUM EVER.. All love and oldies songs.. OMG.. love them all.. =)

Weiyi! My crush when I was in primary school. HAHA. Oh well, chill, I am NOT a lesbian now. But still, I think weiyi is cute! But she just doesn't want to take picture with me =(

Xumin The Half-Korean girl! I miss her so much.. have not seen her since Sec2s..

All in all, I feel really blessed that I have such a caring family, so many caring friends.. I am content. REally..

For now, I really want to put my complete heart and soul in my studies and my future. I am making a list of resolutions for this year. One of them is to stay SINGLE till I am OUT in university (which I hope I could get in) and hmm save up a certain amount of money.. I need to learn how to save money. REALLY.

ALL THE BEST TO YOU JINYI! work hard! and Jiayou everyone! =)