Its January 12th. seven days of relentless lessons and schooling. I shouldn't feel exausted. not now, at least. there is still some energy left in me. i believe that i am still able to recharge for that same amount of energy i used to have. Its not a physical fatigue but mental tiredness. Tired of my life, the failures that i have achieved, and the time that goes so slow, like millions of years. So what to be the 1st in class or standard? I want to achieve something more than that! something worthy and lasts for very long. Its not the very second of glory that i want. ok, maybe I have exaggerated it, its not a glory at all. who cares anyway? seriously nobody cares. i want something more...



Everything is under the power of time and fate.













"First love" is such a romantic song. it feels great and wonderful to close your eyes in the dark, listening to this song. slowly you'll start to drift off to a world of fantasies and fairytales. In that world, you are someone, you are the main character. Living in a big and luxurious castle of a kingdom, together with your beloved prince. Everyone in that world owns their very special talent. and me, who owns the power of water and sea or the power of telekinesis. morover, to own the power of being able to communicate with the animals! talking about animals, hmm...we will also being surrounded by creatures like unicorns, elves, tree ents, small little fairies, griffin, gnomes, imp, wizards, mermaid! phoenix and hmm..worewolves! and alot more! our daily work and activities will not be done by computerization and technology but magic! how wonderful living in such a myth. I wish i wouldnt have to revive my consciousness so fast again. oh please, you know how much i hate reality. where is the peace? no, there isnt any but wars and comflicts everywhere.


its late now, have to rest and tomorrow morning, will be another new day. new challenge. oops, havent studied for my history test... well, wrapped up in my fantasies would give me peace.




nightz, (do u believe that there is an angel who alwaes guides u and gives u support?? but if there is an angel beside me, there should be a devil too, haiz)




nightz angel.