Damn, I shouldnt have gone for MSP. we did not even learn a thing, The teacher practically used the whole period to "slack". she printed out all the assignments that we sent to her by mail last week, then we discussed the answers. well, of course i didnt listen to her, i was reading newspaper :) and sms-ing at the same time. she didnt give a damn. :0



Today, he didnt come.
I felt slghtly down for this. hmm...
Last night, Yh and i talked in the phone for quite long. some how, i am just so fond of her...
She asked me to confess! That's real stupid of me to do this. NO WAY.
But i do wish i could have the courage like her.
Afterall, it may just an UNSENSIBLE obsession.
so why not just leave this thought outta my mind? Its a burden...
sighh
'YOU' are ruining my life.






Jinyi, i hate to see the numbers, the score, the marks.
I am falling. Instead of making ur life so harsh, why dont u just give up and ...well, let go everything? and i mean it, EVERYTHING.



sighh
I dont know how.
There is not much confidence in me.
remember?
" The effort made is far too little..."
Oh god, what can i do? what u want me to do now?
I seriously dont know where to start and how to start!




somebody, please enlighten me.
Please direct me to the rightful way...
I am lost.




















-I cant feel anything from you. I give up.