OMG! Its 11:30pm now.

Although i am physically exhausted but I am mentally fresh.
There is just this urge to keep on working and working relentlessly.
A miracle, eh?
Just pray that this seems endless supply of energy will stay on forever.
Yea, and you can see, I am actually cramming for mid-year exam. which is maybe a little too late and may be a waste of time or effort?
Unfortunately, time cannot be reversed. and thats the only thing i can do.

Today, i reached home at 745pm. MSP is boring but i am quite satisfied with my msp test i took today. I scored 29/30. hehe. But i think majority done well so that wasnt a big deal anyway.
AND i was really surprised that i got into the first position in the whole lvl for last year MSP in the whole lvl. hmm....well, thx god i have built my foundation when i was in Malaysia. Yup, so its not a big deal too lol.



Today's fun part---

During MSP lesson, when we were having our small little break=recess, I didnt want to eat nor drink. Suing, zhenqiang and i stayed in the classroom with some of out msp-classmates. We were talking about SEXUALS REPRODUCTION IN HUMAN BEINGS. lolz
well, i started the conversation first BUT this isnt hmm...dirty, its out of curiosity which is ABSOLUTELY NORMAL . lolz. Moreover, I havent learnt this topic yet so its juz you know, curious to know more. and i remember i learnt something called Zygote which is fertilized egg. yeah! good memory, lol. Zhenqiang also told me that

" Do you know that girls are actually very wicked, instead of "draining" out the excess sperms (failed to fertilize the egg), they actually take up the sperms for Vitamin C..."

LOLZ i hope i remember correctly.
and that, was today's fun part. Cuz while learning this interesting thing, we were laughing all the way... *tears were almost squeezed out*




What i have learnt and realized-----

Ms Chong
somehow, i really like her a lot. but somehow, i am afraid of her too.
I feel like she understands me.
The time when she lays her eyes on me.
The stare she gives me.
I dont know.
somehow, I think she can see through me.
She knows what i am thinking, SOMEHOW.
"dont tell me i am sensitive. i said SOMEHOW."
She knows how i feel.
and when she talks, sometimes i know she is sorta referring to me.
Or even though she wasnt.
She sort of knows how i feel and think about what she says.
Whenever i feel scared or down,
she helps me. or like trying to protect me somehow.
I dont know why i feel this way.
but i am grateful.

Every word she says is like a mirror, reflecting to me all my wrongs.
Every word she says is like waves of sae water wash over me, arousing my consciousness to think SENSIBLY.
Every word she says is like small little knifes that pierce through my heart but at the same time, it soothes me.
At least, she wake me up from this terrible nightmare.
My mind seemed to be in a whirl, but now, AT LEAST, i know what i am doing. I am aware of it.

Everything she says. Peer pressure. Friends. Attitude. Marks. Concern. Your best. or even Failure.

Thank you.










































Still, there is slight fear etched in my heart.
The reality. The truth.

-just makes sure i know what i am doing.