Geography test is okay i guess. left one question blank. sighh*
but its over. so forget about it.

After exam took bus with my frens heading for my sweet home.
Tomorrow need to wake up early cuz its NP day.
and we gonna wear our FULL-U during the exam.....omg like u can IMAGINE! ....

I can't smile. weird... LOLZ
maybe should learn how to smile NICEly in front of the mirror eh?
I promise i will perform the well-done-est smile for you.






"sighh, tell me what happened. Everything just changes. Is there anyway to turn back the time? If that were possible maybe i could at least make the situation better hur?
I dont know how am i going to face you; i dont know how am i going to face them.
Maybe i have not loved anyone before, right? Is it time to give up? This seems hopeless and i am just wasting my time on you. You dont give a damn. You know something is wrong but you just well, ignore and become thoughtless about it. What can i do then? I am no longer that cheerful. something has chnaged inside me. i dont know why. Its cold. i dont really know how to joke but smile. Trying hard to smile as sweetly as possible. Struggling to make you think that i am normal. Of cuz i am normal. I am more than normal. *smiling brightly* If not, then just you know, shut up. Act innocent and silent. This is normal, yea? Cant be helped. I seriously dont know what to do to make the situation better. I am utterly helpless."

"so much of changes. It surprised me, alot. For a moment i was like stunned. I didnt know what to do. Everythint went blank in my mind. Someone who is so near yet so far. someone who is far yet getting further from you. Your total disregard. Your hypocrisies."

"fuck you"

and now, i dont know how to cry. Its silly to cry. I only know silence cry. and bright smile. :)" she says,





















-unfinished.