I really feel like leaving everything behind.
Ignore and thats it.

Somehow, the temptations that come and never cease.
Stop finally but come again in minutes.

U dont call that obstacles.
I called that temptations.
Damn.
I am not concentrating.
My heart just drifted to some where else but never the books.
I hate myself.
Why do such temptations emerge at such a RIGHT time?
I just cant concentrate.
and i slapped myself 2 times today.
Still, its holding me back.
and i almost dumped the books.

Dad gave me that look again.
like wt*...
Its not my fault that the printer almost spoilt right....
the paper just stuck there....
What did he think actually?
that i intended to spoil such a good printer?
he just put all the blames on me.
I didnt mean to bring disasters to YOU!
If i was really such a burden to you, fine, i wouldnt touch a thing next time...


Gosh, tell me what to do now.
Time is running out.
I knew it very clearly!
But even though i knew its quite "late", i'll just stare at the clock and remain motionless!
Do nothing at all.

My mind is never calm now.
I dont know what am i supposed to do.
I know i should just study.
But...
I am not moving!
GO HELL JINYI IF U DESERVE IT!





























-frustrated ; depressed