OMG its soo late now.
I have been making the "bone" for IPW project. So no time for homework. DAMN.
Now going to pray for a while and do my homework liao. :)

Because of the lack of time, i shall summarise what i wanna say today and further elaborate in my next entry.


-- I miss her a lot. Really. But i still think that its not just because of me and what I have done. Anyway, its over, for this moment i guess. Cuz i am afraid to say the word "forever" and "not anymore". It hurts really deeply. Buy I can only remain motionless, not knowing what to do over this broken "thingy". and i could only cry softly and give a broken smile to the computer screen.

WHAT'S WRONG NOW?! (i promised myself not to say the word "f***" anymore, and i will do it, TRUST me!)



-- My common tests are okay i guess. i am eager to know, ignoring the disappointment that i may get. I just wanna know the truth. The truth that tells me whether i have been doing the right thing all these while and not wasting time.

Anyway my english oral sucks. Picture description is totally disastrous for me. I was stuttered all the time... sighh.. But its over...


-- My cousin's neighbour just died. 3 children died in a fire at home. Grandma cried. I feel so sad for them... And we all are determined to pray for them. And so later i am going to pray.


-- Suddenly, while making the "bone", i actually thought of him. Its not Old Man. Its him. and something shocks me out of my life. I felt something for him. something which i have never felt for Old Man. Its closeness that i have once felt. Lovable. Friendly. Caring. I dont know how to describe. something made my heart jump. Goodness, why do i have such feeling back? Was it because of the feeling get back from what i have recalled?

It just makes me wonder....


-- gtg. Byee Jinyi. Good night. Amitabha.