Today is disastrous. Everyday is disastrous for me.. But everyday I learn something. Although its deeply hurtful.

To Yiyan,
Hey girl, I am really sorry that I lost the button thingy for the IPW project. Really sorry. I almost went mad. But i know its OBVIOUSLY my fault. So ...yea...sorry....


My science result is lousy. so does history.
It shows that i have not been doing something that i ought to do all these while.
and I am very disappointed with you, Jinyi.


Anyway its over. I can't believe i can actually let "this" go so easily. Was it just pretending? Or a truly disregard?

No, I think i should stand up on my own again, I dont wanna rely on anyone anymore. Its useless actually. Comforts can't help much. Its me that can help myself.

(I)He is right. Its stupid of me to say nobody understands. Because everybody thinks that NOBODY understands while they are actually having the same problem themselves. I am not sure whether its the SAME problem anot. But i dont care anymore. I dont really agreee with what he said but i do admit that i am at the wrong side to say that NOBODY understands me.

Mum actually chided me for being careless to lose my things and so on. At first i was damn pissed off. I cried. For the moment i wanted nothing but to close my eyes and drift off to a long slumber forever. Its actually scary to wake up. But she was right. The problem lies on me.
and thus i am responsible for it.













Amitabha. Let me have peace.
Give me the strength please :)