Today is very boring, as USUAL.

Just now playing with BEnedict with vocabs, so funny lol.

Jy : Longest
B : Shortest
Jy: furthest
B: nearest
Jy :prettiest
B : ugliest
Jy : beautifullest
B : ugliest


-.- and so on.

Anyway, today reached home at about 5 something and i started busy snapping photos of myself for IPW. Then i sent it to Yiyan so that she can upload it into the computer. Then she sent back to me.


The above photo was taken LONG LONG ago lol. I looked damn SPASTIC la lol. So funny *laughing my socks off*

This picture was taken today lol. I wore the specs i used to wear last time in school. I look so woman-like LOL. but after examining much of myself, i realized that my nose is actually very BIG!!! -.-'' AAAWWW MAN... guess i should start pinching my nose from now onwards, so to make it smaller lol. (jkjk) BUT IS REALLY BIG!!!!!!!! -.-

Today after school, my group took quite a number of photos also. I am gonna put it into our class blog ^.^ so funny~~~~~

GOSH, tml have Malay Camp, like WTF? From morning 730 to evening 7pm! and i will only be back home at about 8pm... It really scares me to know that time is running out yet i might not be able to have time for tests. I really wanna work hard, really hard.....but it always ends up doing the last minute work. and i loathe it... Why do i have to procrastinate my work?!

God bless me and give me some courage. I hope i can do it...

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DEAR FRIEND,

Seriously i am so FUCKING pissed off with you, as well as helpless. I dont know what's wrong with you and i just dont think i have changed that much cuz its always you're the one who said I AM THE PROBLEM yet others dont say so. It just makes me more confused. COME ON! We are good friends. At least that's what i thought as what we were. I know you're in a bad mood. So I tried to be funny to maybe cheer you up, OR i should say thats the way i am! It's always me. I just dont get it... ITs ME and here you said WADS WRONG WITH YOU? The words really stunned me but still, i tried to act as normal as possible. AND U CONTINUED FUCK FUCK FUCK. I dont know whether i should just erupt in front of you or pretended to be normal?! For goodness sake it was just an IPOD! Its not ur boyfren or whatsoever right?!

For the moment i almost wanted to say FINE since u cant live without it then GO DIE NOW. But i know it will hurt you and we'll have World War II if i say this. Just because of the word "friend", have u ever tried to do something about it for me AT LEAST? Everything i do, trying to help you and so on and it turns out to be so topsy-turvy...

I really dont know what to do. Maybe i am wrong. Cuz i seriously dont know how to talk to you. Its just so different. Its no longer the same anymore. The way i talk, the way you react is completely different from how you reacted in the past. So every word of yours just shocked the fucking shit out of my life. I continued to talk like the way i talked to see whether you would chnage in ur reaction but it became worse. I dont know what to do... You make me so wanna cry for you yet i am also boiling with great volcanic anger overlay with deep confusion. You are soooo BLOODY different in reality compared to in msn. Its just not the same anymore. I feel so lost to talk to you...

Helpless. Confused. Pissed off. tell me what to do!? ITs me... If you can't stand or already couldnt stand me from the beginning when we met then FINE, JUST TELL ME,

I DON'T LIKE YOU. GET LOST.

Maybe there is just this invisible gap. Maybe it is always there. Maybe we're not meant for each other from the beginning. LET ME TELL U NOW, you're not the only one who feels shattered. so stop being so childish and WAKE UP ! and be SENSIBLE!

and that would be the last words for you before i burst out.

Fuck. Whats so nice about this word huh?! I have NO TIME FOR FUCKING. yet its like part of my life. THE WORDS. ASSHOLE.

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Ningli, thanks for the nice pictures you sent to me.

They are all full of mysteries and NICE!!!

and Its the picture that leads me to fall in love with MASK. esp half mask.

Its just so mysterious and artistic. I really wish to wear one with a gown, it will sooo beautifully mysterious :) I just love this feeling. sigh..

Isnt this mask nice? Golden colour. The edge of the eye is narrow and sharp, the eyeline is SO BEAUTIFUL!! reminds me of the egyptian eye of Horus...



This one is VERY meticulously designed. How i wish to wear.... aaawww
This one also. And to buy this kinda mask it costs about 300 US dollars. I TINK. if i didnt rmbr wrongly -.- SO EX! but doesnt it look gorgeous?!

I guess i should stop here. MY FRENS WILL HAVE A HARD TIME LOADING THIS BLOG LOL. (I am not a sadist) actually i feel sad that they find it hard to get it but nvrm.... -.-

Give me some courage, and i'll be able to survive.

Just some...