Today's story :

During recess, we sat at the back of the canteen. He was there. Old Man.
I dunno. My heart just started to thump faster and faster, with him around it gets on my nerve. sometimes i would even blush if u talk about it. -.- But i just feel so happy to see him around. :)
Yet i am scared and nervous to death, sighh. I tried hard to act cool, really...

Denise said he was looking at me.
Yiyan said it was normal to see people in front of you.
so was that a deliberate? or a coincidence?
I wish to know the truth.

Maybe its just curiosity.
Its my imagination that forms the YOU in my dream.
But to know the truth, somehow i would have to ruin my dream.
Shall i ruin my dream? or should i keep this dream forever for myself till it perishes itself?


Jay Zhou really roX.
I love his voice and songs.
and Old Man sounds so like him ^.^


PT is tiring today.
Drills too.
But i got to time for the squad, for a while -.-
So there is things to be learnt worthwhile :)


Next, common tests are coming soon.
To think of my DnT test and science test that i just took this week,
It really discourages me alot. Nobody understands anyway.
They will just think that i would do well or just dont give a damn. Anyway, its none of their business. so why should i be so demanding?

Feelings are complicated and hard to define.
I am not sure whether i have feelings for you or not. IT doesnt matter who you are.
I am just wondering whether i am still a human, whether i have true feelings.
Sometimes u just cant live without a facade. Or is it because i have beem surrounding by too many facades that i begin to turn to one?
I am just confused and unsure.
Now, i dont even know what is love.

Sigh, never mind. Guess i should stop straining my brain cell to come out with one definition. Maybe ignorance is the best way to find out the true answer.













"Work that i have kept aside;
& I am not letting go the unnecessities.
"A white paper;
Strange to the word "love"
Feel like screaming now.

and you go.