Today is the last day of school in 2006. So much of wonderful memories in 2F I really can't bear to leave all my classmates and get streamed into different clasess. I think i would most probably get streamed into triplet science class. To think that only Gwen can get in with me and the rest would be leaving me, my heart crushes into pieces.

Especially today, I can't believe that Kristin, Denise and even Ms Chong are leaving TK next year. This urges me to leave TK too, somehow.



Today, the very moment that i stepped into 2F classroom, I started to cherish every moment with 2F. The days when we were together very happily flashed through my minds and i was really in great remorse for not treasuring what I had all this year... There is just this sudden urge to hug every two-affer. To think it would be my last day staying in this classroom, talking and joking with my classmates and listening to what the teachers say, an undescribable sadness engulfed me. Tears stung my eyes and left bitter in the heart. You just can't describe the feeling. Its like so heavy and melancholy in the heart that it makes you hard to breathe and the atmosphere, the whole world seems to be crumpled and you feel disastrous!

Oh my god.. in the first place i shouldn't have any feelings for this class. In the first place i shouldn't have filled with hopes and anticipation with the time that i am with 2F. In the first place i rather we don't have to meet.. i should have taken my relationship with the class lightly. Then i wouldn't be getting hurt so much.

IF ONLY.
and all the moments with 2F could only be locked in my memory and no more.
But still, memory.

Is there anything that can soothe my heart? I feel like as if I am dying...
It is terrible!

Next year would be a new year, new challenge for everyone. I hate the fact that life is about partings and acclimatizations. Is it really true that the moment we are borned on Earth means we are destined to have a taste of bitterness and happiness? Such distinct difference that could affect our feelings tremendously. How I wish to be stranded in between of these two feelings. In this way I would not give a damn on anything! Come on, why life? why Earth? why human? why sad?

Unexplained questions.


So many things that I would indubitably miss...
2F rocks! i was so shocked and stunned to hear the news that 2F got the Best class award this year among all classes in TK. Last year, we already got one. i thought this year we wouldn't get the title of BEST CLASS but we still are! Our results are overally well done! and next year....


I really would miss all my classmates.
To be with the girls, we were always chit-chatting over some funny stuff and play together..
To be with the guys, so much of jokes and sickly topic we talked about and play together...
To be with the teachers, especially Ms Chong.

I love her lots. She is such a good teacher since last year. i wanted to say
" thank you so much for all your encouragements and support and kind words..." But I was too afraid to utter out those words. The words just died in my throat... Without her, I don't think I am what i am supposed to be today. I really blame myself for not knowing how to express myself to let her realize how much gratitude i have for her. -sigh-


Yiyan, I am really sorry for leaving you like this. Maybe after all, everyone has their own path to go. Even though we never separate next year, we would still be parting in the future when it is time to venture into the hard journey of life. I am really sorry... I feel so... aarggh i don't know how to say but I am really really sorry... Please promise that we would still remain as BFFs. You must be strong kay?


Next, this short paragraph is for Jared. I don't really care whether you read this but never mind.
Well, I am sorry for saying all those words to you because I can't accept the fact that we are separating and actually none of you wanted to choose option 1. When you scolded me, I was crying. It seems like the world is crushing. None of you seem to care actually, like yongxi said, maybe you all don't reveal your feelings much but somehow I NEED to know. Yet these are never understandable. I know I am being paranoid. Because now I am afraid and worried. I know i shouldnt be like this. This is LIFE. This is TRUTH. This is FATE. Unfortunately, I am banging myself onto unbreakable walls.

An invisible barricade that could not be pushed through.
I fervently hope for the feelings to be evaporated immediately.


i began to falter.