I can't believe I am seeing this.

SUNDAY, DECEMBER 31, 2006

Here is my last post for 2006. T.T



Here is the picture that we took during our class BBQ at downtown east. Well, the picture is pathetic kinda small and blur but still nice ^.^ I'll keep this in my computer, as well as memories. I promise.

(Anyway I feel so kinda disappointed that those photos that Nadiah sent me, hardly have my face inside zzz.... BECAUSE I was either doing something on my face or facing my butt to the camera or just wasn't ready to smile LOL. Freaking what lar. Not a single nice one. Syamim's photos was everywhere! lol. But I saved all the pics. They are prescious k!)















There you see the different yet familiar faces, those faces that you have been seeing for the last two years.. Though some are freaking annoying and qian bian(lol) but there are also some faces that you just couldn't bear to part with them. It is 5 hours before 2007 comes, i think I am so gonna miss 2006. Forget about the bad memories, cherish the good ones.

Next year is indeed a tough year I guess. Because the number of subjects that we are taking is going to increase. I am really worried whether I should give up MSP.. Two months of holidays really make me feel sick but I am also kinda addicted to slacker's life. Oh yar, next year I am gonna take Mother Tongue O' level, but my chinese is getting from bad to worse. For I have not been reading and writing chinese for two months. Now there is just this hunger to devour every chinese word that comes into my sight. -sigh-

I feel so miserable now. Acw is not right to say that I always write about sad stuff but I really feel this way!! :(

I will miss 1F 05' and 2F06'.
I will miss everyone of them, badly.
I will miss the classroom and my lovely form teacher Miss Chong.
I will miss those higher Mother Tongue class students. (haha)
I will miss those time that I am hapy and sad. ^.^

Feeling of apprehension is inevitable as a new year comes, it actually means new challenges will surface us too. That's what I am always so scared about.

Truly, I am afraid of my results and my social life. Will I still remain that strong? Will I be able to stand up on my own once again when the next time I fail to do something? Will I still be able to withstand with those hypocrites? Will I be able to cope and smile like I did in the past? I guess I am just a coward. A coward who is timid of facing problems and obstacles. What a loser.

It's never that easy to perform my very best with good results I guess.

Friends have never given me the courage here. Though there is one, but it seems the friendship is fading away. Something is just missing. But I still want it back. And I cry for that. Oh god...


No matter what, that's what reality is. I guess I should smile and welcome the year 2007. No matter what happens, it will be part of my life. I am ready to say hii now and say CHEESE!!!!!! ^.^



Next, here are some pictures that I took with Cassandra, Ningli and Xintian today. My the other 3 good friends in primary school. Miss them lots and love them lots! <3

Ningli is wearing a really BIG emerald ring!!! Xintian is biting the cherries -.-
This is sweet. I love it!

HAHA, It's my turn to bite the cherries... LOL.

Well, actually 4 of us together with Timothy and Kathryna, we intend to go library but we realized that the library was closed AARRGGHH. So after we had our lunch Kat and Tim went home to play their stupid computer games with Titus. (grr...)

The 4 of us went to take neoprint at Tiong then we ate Ice cream together and chatted in food court.

Here is the interesting topic we talked about.

Firstly, we talked about ghost stories or rumours in our schools. Ok, that's nothing. Then somehow we talked about sleeping alone in our bedroom. zzzz.

In the beginning I thought I would be the only one to be scared sleeping alone in a room but HEY I AM NOT ALONE. BEcause four of us are scared too! wheeeeeesss..... For me and Ningli, we don't face the wall when we lie on our bed because it just feels so comfortable and eerie not to see what's hmm... going on in our surrounding, especially those empty space. I just feel as if something creepy is behind me if I face the wall and IF the lights is off. T.T Well, to tell the truth, I don't like sleeping alone but can't be helped. :(

We talked about how we are scared to off the lights in our room. Firstly, I will arrange my pillow and blanket nicely then I will wait, and wait and wait. Then I will just pluck up my very courage to quickly off the lights and jump onto the bed and cover myself with the blanket..... and make sure that there is no gap and I am fully wrapped in this safe blanket... and I'll open my eyes big enough to notice the surrounding and make sure that there is no weird figures in my view. zzz. OH YAR, and I'll listen if there is any unknown noise coming from nowhere. THIS IS FREAKING SCARY! If everything is normal then I'll give a sigh of relief and stay awake for like 30minutes and fall into slumber with such uneasiness. How pathetic can this be for me to sleep every night like this! AARRGGHH.

Whatever. I can't believe that Xintian and Cass don't open their eyes. Instead when they're scared, they will just shut their eyes and don't dare to open=.= Don't they wanna find out about what's hmm.......up there? Though usually there would have nothing... But still, it's weird O.o

Interesting as well! lol.

ANyway I'll just end my post like this. I need to go have my dinner now I am sooooooooo hungry... T.T

LOVE 2006 AND MISS EVERYBODY AND OMG, I LOVE U HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA <3