Gosh, I feel terribly exhausted after a full day of schooling, CCA and taekwondo.



Its really an unexplained question that keeps me mind in a turmoil. I don't know why. Fortunately or unfortunately, you are actually the first person who could force me to dead end. Almost.

Sometimes, you're indeed a flower which brings fragrance and admiration. There is time that I really appretiate them to the fullest. But who knows those little hidden thorns of this beautiful flower could actually prick your very flesh to crimson blood?

A volcano is indeed a picturesqe scene from far sight. But who knows when it erupts it is actually capable of killing and inflicting pain on those unseen hearts?

Maybe this is something different. But
Why are you so afraid of them? So hopeless about what will be surfacing? Its really a pity.
But true though. You know exactly what's happening to you. But you refused to accept the fact, and continue to be blinded by those smog that you created. It just saddens me that you still don't know the truth.

You want to be surrounded. You want to be crowded by them, even the unknown ones. You want to get control of every bit of your people, their life, every single thing that pops up in front of you. You just wanna get hold of it. And this really makes me wonder why...

Is there a need to do so? A glare of public attention?
You are just afraid of losing more of what you have already lost.

I guess I have never been treasured by you.
But I will treasure you as who you are. Though it is never easy, I will take it as a challenge, even exam. But its never a person anymore. I am doing it for myself from now onwards. But to do that, I have to do it for you. And this, is tough.




After all, I am not the worst right? At least. I still have them, and their love. <3
hehe. ^.^