Gosh, I really feeling like deleting this bloody blog. I know I have no reasons to hate it but somehow if I could touch it, I really wanted to crush the hell out of it. I know I am selfish. I really suck. Come on, since when things go the way it supposed to be? Since when my wish has ever been fulfilled? I really loathe deceiving myself anymore. Its FUCKING "aaaaaaarrgghhhhh"!!

How wonderful if I could be the bad person : unreasonable, careless, violent, vulgar and sadistic. I really really really really really want to scream. I hate this pressure. I simply hate being the good person. Tell me whats happening to me? never mind. Don't tell me. All suckers.

Time for soul-searching?
You need that too?
Oh yea? It's my fault?
DAMN.