It's been a long time since I last blogged. Well, I was just too busy and lazy that I couldn't be bothered to blog. Moreover, those complex feelings of mine... it's hard to describe. I wonder how I got used to those words last time. The way it's being typed with such melancholy. I hardly want to do it again. Or maybe it's because I have given up on those hopeless dreams of mine that now, I literally want to throw all these feelings aside and leave it in a lurch.

Depressed of what have happened. So many things that i can't handle. No, they have alreaydy gone out of control. So many things to say. So many things to cry for and so many things to yearn for. Yet now I am unable to spit out a word on those things.

I am really on the verge of breaking down. Come on, what on earth is actually happening to me? Is there any more space to store up these feelings?

It's really tiring. and here,

the core of heart, a sharp pain, and a scar.
I falter.