Many thoughts barged into my mind. I don't know why my heartbeat is still so fast. From the CC to home, and now, it's still beating so hard with such great speed. There is simply this fear in me, which I don't really understand why it keeps occuring in me. I feel so scared somehow. oh my... why? so many things to worry, so many things to think about.. and so many things to regret. Inside, I just keep shuddering for nothing...

Come on, what's wrong? How many times must I ask myself... again and again. So many things I can't handle well, can anybody tell me what to do? I really just feel like giving up everything. I don't feel like giving a damn to anything already. What for?!

Studies? Friends? Basketball? and...?! and this freaking feelings that keep occuring in me for no reasons... Am I having mental problems or what? WHAT'S WRONG?

If only I could be invisible...
(If only Xumin is here zzz, if only 'they' can be with me...)


I really hate it... really feel like screaming now... or just sleep forever and delve into this perfect dream of mine..... I mean, what else can I do? Let the time tick away till my dying day?










(One more thing I freaking loathe people doing is SMOKING! I am determined to stop all these people... It's simply disgusting and not good for health... !!!!!!)






Tell me, when will the day come when everything is just fine? When will the sunshine ever dry away those tears? When will the storm ever cease and the darkness ever get away from me?
And where are those helping hands ever appear?

I falter.
Let it be? Another question...