These 2 days are kind of horrible for me. But i know that there are many other people who are worse than me.

Here are my results :
English- 53 , how wonderful is that? I didn't expect myself to do so badly. English is always so unexpected. I wonder if the teacher was blind when she marked my work. lol. But never mind, I guess I am simply incapable to do well for English. Shall work hard for my Final-Exam. =/

E math- 83, which is very easy but I did quite a few mistakes and should continue to work hard.

Add math - 55 or 56, which is like shit. I have done really badly. i didn't expect it to get so LAN... I think I have to work really hard. Though I know i am slacking. I told Mom that i had 15 marks of careless mistakes! But all she said is, " Still, it is wrong." True though. -sigh-

Physic- 69, physic i did okay. But my class a lot of people get A1. They are really smart and hardworking as well ^^ The worst part is that I got 70 originally, and Mr. Wee went to deduct one stupid mark and then I DROPPED ONE GRADE... and bacame 69. How wonderful...

Chemistry- 77, which is nothing to be surprised about. I expect the whole cohort to get A for 'O' level. lol. We can make it.

Biology - 72, a surprise for me, for i expected a C for this. Wow. I am contented.

I still don't know about my HMT and Combined humanity, hopefully I could get A for these 2 subjects. Really hope so... I did so badly for A math, English and maybe a bit of physic. I heard that Geog Elect is tough... T.T

Overall, I think I went down a lot. Actually, I was kinda afraid.
Hmm.... Maybe I am very scared. Really scared. But I couldn't help it. I don't know what happened to me. I think I tried my best, didn't I? Or maybe it is just my capability and limitation of what I can do? i don't feel so sad for myself. But I feel sad for the people who care for me, especially my parents. Though they don't seem to care. Mum didn't ask me about my results, she just asked me, " Are you satisfied?" Those 3 words are already capable of drowning me into an abyss of embarrassment. But I swallowed those 3 words into my heart bitterly. -sigh-

I am really afraid of so many things. How? Struggling and panicked, helplessly. ='(






Anyway let's not talk about exams anymore.
I have just finished up Eragon book. It was awesome! I am totally in love with it. Reading storybook is actually very niceee, especially fantasy. Its like your mind and body will be brought into another world. So real and full of adventures and fantasies, magic and more!! i love it. And its one of the ways to bring yourself away from the reality. A method of ceasing pain from this cruel and realistic world huh? hmm...

Well, today just went to borrow the second book after Eragon, which is Eldest. Both are written by Chrsitopher Paolini. He wrote Eragon when he was at the age of 15! Omg, he is great. I am gonna finish this book and after that I am gonna finish up SlamDunk comics. ^.^ That will be enough to keep me occupied for many days.



Next, when I read the Eragon, There are a few words of enlightments from Garrow, Eragon's Godfather. He said, " Give men your far, but not your heart. Show respect for those in power, but don't follow them blindly. Judge with logic and reason, but comment not. Treat all fairly. Or they will seek revenge."
i find these quite useful, though it may not be useful for us youngsters lol. Haha.

Ok, I guess I should go off and bathe now. Its late. I hope tomorrow is not as bad as today. :)