Burying myself in the soft, thick warm duvet and hugging my beloved pillow. Melodious music singing to my ears. The smell of sleepiness. Moonlight reigns through the night. I close my eyes.

and drift into my dreamland... <3

Never mind. Back to reality -.-

Isn't this cool? I love this outfit. Especially the pants. =)

Hand in hand as we walk through all the obstacles. <3

A weird combination, eh? But I love it. Let it be weird. Let things be weird. *

(click on it to have bigger version look) This picture is mysteriously beautiful. The first time that I saw it, I stared at it, stunned for very long. The feeling was unusual. Its as if you've just entered a trance. Freedom, yeah. For once, I thought it was real. =/

(Click on it to read the words in the picture) This is extremely saddening and hurtful. Another picture which I stared for very long, I couln't help but delved into deep thoughts.
What will you do if you witness this? There is people who is starving to death and has been trying so hard to get just one mouthful of food, at the same time, the vulture is stalking behind this people, waiting for her to die in order to eat them.

And why did the photographer commit suicide after all even though he received such a prestigious award for this photo?

Some says, the pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist.

As I read this, my heart ached terribly. For truth can never lie.

Don't we look more like the vulture?

Maybe the photographer saw himself as one.. or was he feeling like the emaciated child? I wish I could understand how he felt. -sigh-




Friday Training

Friday training, I went with the Sec2s for dry shoot. At first I was kinda worried that I wouldn't be able to handle, but everything went perfectly okay.

But in the bus, something was wrong. The look of their faces, I could tell it's disappointment. After one of the Sec2s pissed her off by pressing the alarm bell in the bus, she scolded them and went back to sit. Her face creased with troubles. She sighed and said, very emotionally ( I thought),

" What's happening to you guys? Why do we always have to deal with these things? I can't even help you guys develop leadership if things like this continue to happen... Tell me what happened.. Tell me... " as her words faded into silence. Everyone was quiet.

I didn't know what to say. I didn't answer her. She didn't sound like she was questioning me.. But I could feel her depression inside her.

And I can't do a thing.

The squad had a really long talk with Ms Nani, Ms Wong and Mdm Hazi. Some of us finally talked things out. So many conflicts and unhappiness. The troubles that we made. I thought we were once so good? That's what most of us thought so, right? So much tears have shed just to accept the fact that we aren't good after all?

No... we just have to tell ourselves that it is not true. We are good actually. To think of those things that we have achived in the past as a cadet... We just have to solve the problems out and I know that deep in my heart, this squad is the best.

It's really tiring, since when does this thing cease to drain out all our energy? Unnecessary battle. So what if you're winning? At the same time you are killing those who try so hard to stop this battle. And then, what more do you left to gain? A victory that does not earn any fame and a land of dead bodies. Come on, all these fights don't worth a thing, we just have to give up.

Unity is in the heart. Hope will rise still even though sacrifices are made.

Seriously, so many things to say yesterday night but now I am out of words. Can we just settle this thing once and for all?

Forgive, forget, endure and reflect?

-In honest, I want my campcraft back. =(