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My dad gave me one. =)

This pair of earrings is for Xumin, has been rotting since february. zzzzz

My room is a universe. HAHA. It's supposed to be upright..

This..... is an ACCIDENT. ......err..... yeah.

A pig taking a photo of a pig. zzzzzzzz

Nice nice nice =)

Firza and Yingmin! =)

Ameera! Nice one...
Squad IC partner. =)

Good friend Shuwen . =)
Joan and I, scissor action lol.

Lao Po and Lao gong. <3> Tata~~

A weird scene.

This..... is again..... an ACCIDENT. Trust me.. ^^

A pair of emo guys.

Charmaine, Hui Min, Jiajun, zzz . Act cute lol.

Today had fun playing games all the time during NPCC training. First soccer which was sooo fun! second some catching game, third basketball! =D Sec twos and Ones rock!

After that went to buy drinks together with the Sec Twos then went home. =)Really got to know them a lot this time. Jerome is afraid of being tickled! Farhan is so funny! A number of sec twos play sport well. =)

My Way lyrics

-This song is dedicated to myself, and probably everybody =)

一直在酝酿 一直在盼望

爸爸和妈妈唯一的理想

二月第一天 一九八一年

我第一次对他们眨了眨眼

等待快点过去多少个明天

希望这个宝贝快快长大一点一点

身体要健康所有的事情都如所愿

baby长大以后就是小轩

so i will find my way

i want a different way

i'll change the wind and rain

there be a brand new day

小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰

现在遇到困难我自己就要学会面对

i will find my way

i want a different way

nothing will stop me now no matter what they say

困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对

现在用心去追 感觉就对

i'll find my way

i will find my way i find my way

一直就这样 找我的方向

不理会别人奇怪的眼光

直到有一天 我忽然发现

梦想已经在实现

等待快点过去多少个明天

看着自己已经慢慢长大一点

我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握

相信自己 不怕风雨再多

A lot of things happen.. Though some are indeed inevitable. Sometimes, it's hard to believe that those long lingering years have passed and now.. you've grown up. I mean, you have really grown up. A brain of different mindsets. A conscious of your own. A very soul of your own, fighting for a breath every second. You are different now. And, you're no longer a three-year-old kid where you can play and sleep soundly in the warm bed of yours with them holding on to your hands, protecting you, solving problems for you. Sometimes, fear engulfs you so sudden when you feel the emptiness of fighting in the war all by yourself, alone. Those scenes of them by your side, are after all, illusions. Sooner or later, they will disappear. Its heart-wrenching...

Will their love remain for eternity?? I want to feel that in my heart, all the time...

Crying doesn't help, feeling sad doesn't help either. That is a fact to be accepted no matter what. It's just the way it is, I guess.. The parting, is simply a sign of love, a proof for love, yet overlaying a sweet bitterness, with tears unknowingly merge with your very souls, gifting them as we part for the very last moment...

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Listen to Your Heart -lyrics

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes...yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going, and I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worth while
The precious moments are all lost in the tide...yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams (to your dreams)

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going, and I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

And there are voices, that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
The scent of magic, the beauty thats been
When love was wilder than the wind

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
Theres nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going, and i dont know why
But listen to your heart before
you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart mmm mmmmm

I dont know where your going and i dont know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

There are people whom I feel differently towards them. YYNX. Whether or not are true friends. I don't really know. It's hard to understand fully how one feels, at least, for me. But they are indeed special in my heart. They can control how I feel. =)

For the things that I do, I don't even know why. It just turns out like this. Sometimes, even wonders are unavoidable. I really don't understand. How I wish to make things clear, but it's too complicated. Human minds are wonders. Words of simplicity may explain everything, yet the meaning of the core has never been revealed. How I wish, to just know how I really feel... Oh my.. How I really wish so... to understand.. to know.. But words can't explain, even thoughts cannot reach to a point of full understanding. The truth. The facts. Why are they always hiding as if they don't exist?

By listening your heart? How? There is no distinct answer.

The struggle of the different feelings that lead to an action. An action of what you want and what you really don't want. Again, all kinds of consequences ensued. With these, a response u give that isn't what your heart really wants. How condradicting it is? With remorse, you begin to ponder the reasons, searching for an answer in the vastness, sometimes, even questioning yourself. But do you answer? No. You already gave the wrong response. And how can you ask for an asnwer from yourself? Your heart will answer? I really don't know...

断点- lyrics

静静地陪你走了好远好远 连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸
不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
你已经不在我的身边
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的
蜜语甜言

For him,

听说你已经离开了。多么突然，多么意外， 多么不知所措。。

以前的感情或许已经蒸发了，但就是因为缘分是特别的， 所以就带点了忧虑。 知道这是一件很傻的事， 但不知不觉总有一股冲动想挽救这些凶多吉少的“意外”。也许事情会因我而有所转变。。。 算了，我在想什么啊? 这种感觉，并不平常。比如一个你曾认识或相处过的人，忽然在你眼前消失，永远都不回来了，永远都不会出现了。。 就这样，忽然间的。。。 你不会感到可惜吗？还有那一点点的伤心。。。 包括思念。 至今，我还不敢相信。。。我该相信这所谓的事实吗？那么荒唐的事， 这怎么可能呢？！我真的希望你能回来，至少一下子，让我相信并准备没有你的世界。这种感觉很不好受。。。 不管是发生在谁的身上， 我都会有如此的感受。

没人给我明确的答案。我只能希望，祈祷，祝福。

“你会好好的，对吧？”

I am sleepy. Good night.

Where will my dreams take me to this time? =/