(I don't understand why I can't put pictures...........)

Finally, get to blog. Thanks to getting banned from using internet sia...
Never mind.


I went back to visit my Primary School and Old Teachers with my Old Friends on Teachers' day. That day I pon school because Xumin came to my house on Thursday for sleepover =)) At night, we watched Eragon and The Phantom of the Opera, after that we talked craps till 3 plus I think. Because of this i almost got sick on the next day... Part of it was also because I ate too much chips while watching the movies. Thanks to somebody who bought that =P

Anyway Phantom of the Opera is superb NICE! Though in the middle its kinda boring because of too much singing. But overall, its OMGOSHLY niceeeeee... <3

Went to watch The Secret with Yiyan and err..... Ivan, he last minute joined us..... just because that day was his birthday ............zzz Anyway the movie is SOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOOOO nice, creative and romantic! OMG.... Totally uberly FANTASTIC.. i didn't know Jay Chow is so talented, almost in every area.. Singing, composing and even creating a movie of his own, some more its soo like his style of movie.. unique and special in its own way..

The movie is romantic yet overlayed with a sense of mystery. Totally unexpected.. <33







Next, today campcraft training was okay.. Yesterday was a full day training that really tired me out a whole lot. And now I am having light fever. Grr...... Why can't I get sick during school day?!! ....

The training is fun to a certain extent. But the pressure that it gives, I just dislike it. There is time when I really enjoy the process, But the thought of the outcome, of the day of the competition, of anything mishap or unlucky things happen..... especially because of me.. I hate it. -sigh- Why am I such a coward sometimes hur? Stupid.









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Thoughts :

Sometimes it's really interesting to understand how human mind works and how fear can actually force us to do something unexpected. If only we could have a simpler mind. If everybody can live happily with that simpler mind, I rather.... Squeeze out all my brian juices.. But no, it seems like we are born complicated. Or is it because of the environment that we are in that makes us complicated in almost everything? Such complex thoughts and mixture of feelings that combine, result in so many weird unnecessary actions or reactions.

Sometimes, you care so much. Sometimes you really screw everything, you sometimes being unreasonable, sometimes overboard. I just wonder did u do that deliberately... To think of the way u manipulate my feelings and thoughts.. To make me feel the outburst of anger every now and then. To make me feel these painful stabs of remorse and guilt for what you said.. To the point where I feel so confused that I don't even know whether now I should feel angry or should feel remorseful towards you. From the start I thought it was your fault, it should be YOUR fault, but somehow it turned out that i felt it was my fault.. How wise of you to assault me with your needle-like words and unreasonable acts, and then the next day, pretend nothing has happened and treat me like your beloved doll.. How could you?!


That is one thing that I don't understand.

Next, I don't understand why people are so obsessed with the position they want? Higher position means greater challenge, greater responsibility.. In a sense that the main focus shouldn't be the title of the position, but the challenge that you have to go through, isn't it? It really puzzles me how some people respond to such thing. And, one thing for sure is that no matter how high the position can be, there is still someone who has got higher authority than you. I really don't understand. Why do people, in nature, know how to instruct people, but don't know how to listen? Even the king listens to his people sometimes... so why can't we?!

It just makes me realize that Power is one of those things that is capable of eliminating the race of humans. Next comes Money... and Wealth. These come from the greed in our mind. Come on, what conflicts don't occur because of these?