Campcraft girls prelim yesterday was pretty good and well done! Honestly, I was really nervous. Part of myself felt quite confident and ready, the other part was damn freaking worried for the 'What If' . Something went wrong during the competition but we managed to solve the problem on time. *clap clap* hahaa I knew everyone's heart almost jump out, especially from the instructors and guys members. I could feel the tension!

In the competition, the time seems really very fast, unusually fast.. The pitch seems smaller as well. I guess its because we were finally doing the real thing... hmm..

Well, I personally feel that Cynthia has done really well. Cynthia is the best flagpole partner ever! haha.. She managed to solve the problem on time. Of course, the other members have done well too! *more claps* We cheered at the end of the competition and everyone was looking at us! We also thanked Mr Lee, our principal for coming to support us. =)

And.. it was so funny to hear the guys saying what cheer they actually intended to say! Lol!

After that, we headed back to school. Received a prank call saying that the girls have gotten into the Final Top 10 but the guys didn't. Everyone was so down and sad and moody.. Some were even on the verge of tears. Then the instructors came.. everything was kinda quiet... I totally had no mood to have my lunch. We were all sad because we thought we had broken the records of both teams getting into the finals... then suddenly, I heard Ms Nani's high-pitched laughter... I was like.. WTH???? then a piece of paper was passed to the guys and then we realised that both teams have gotten into the finals! everything happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe the instructors can be soo mean! But well, they are also the nicest instructors of all.. not to think about how sarcastic some can be.. After that everything was a blur. Many people started break down and cry.. I guess its tears of joy.

Now, Final will be next Saturday.

Just one more week.



Lastly, I feel sad that TKGS didn't get into the finals.. To think that TK and TKG had always been together in the finals.. Its weird. And.. I don't like the idea of treating the competitors like the enemy. We need competitors but I don't think we need enemies at all to improve ourselves to get a better standard. I think I can understand how they feel after knowing the results..





Okay. Thats all for Campcraft.
Just now, I was browsing through the Leo Ku 古巨基 's MVs. He has a new chinese album now. So weird.. usually he would be singing Cantonese songs. I just realised that I LOVE him a lot! omg.... his voice is so beautiful and sometimes, he just has this expression that makes you feel so emotional and maybe.. sad.

Its kinda sad to know that most of your friends are just so English and "english". and you can hardly have any friends who have the same interest with you in terms of the type of music you listen to..



Anyway, this videos shows him singing a song called My Love, My fate, which is a song first sung by Janice.




I think this is in his chinese album. nice!

To J,

I know you don't mean it, saying those hurtful words. You're hurt too. But to know this, I can hardly know you now. Maybe its my fault. but you're just not someone who I have expected to be.. Things are different now. Crying doesn't help to amend anything at all.. yet we both cried. I don't know whats wrong. It may not be something big but it really hurts.. as if your heart is pricked by the thousands of needles. I wish time could be reversed..

I am so weak emotionally. Thats what I really realised. What's going on with that two friends of mine? One who is my best friend, who I used to be so close, yet she is just so far away from me now.. I can't reach her at all. the other one is someone who I thought could understand me but he didn't. I feel so terribly painful from the inside now I can't stop crying whenever I think about them. Its like I can hardly breathe, the prolonged pain inside is so strong I thought it could tear me apart... Whats really going on with me? How could I ever allow things like this to affect my life? I can't do anything now.. all I know is cry and cry.. Arrgghh part of myself is so disgusted by what a weakling I am. Please stop this Jinyi.. You know how to handle things like this... you know, right?

Oh my...