A quick and short post.

Aargghh.. honestly, I am so freaking pissed and utterly disappointed with myself...
Whats wrong man?! Everything I planned went wrong. EVERYTHING. I am supposed to have finished studying a certain topics for some subjects but ended up completing none of that... Seriously whats the f****ing problem! Its so different now.. Last time study could be such an enjoyment but now I just can't concentrate for even 30min! Everytime when I am in the process of studying I just end up HALF-SLEEPING or doze off or stunned.. I just feel so exhausted... Its like I can't make it physically and mentally I am not even prepared!

Though I tried so many ways to make myself to stay awake, but somehow to no avail.. I wonder how many times must i bathe to stay awake.. Usually at home will be the ideal place to mug, but its not the same now.. I feel so lagging behind... and honestly, I can't help but to feel realy panicked now...


Save me, I really want to do well.. but from looking at the situation now, I doubt I can do it... its so.....





My heart aches terribly to see those bruises on you. Honestly, I am totally helpless now. I really don't know what to do and how to feel... I thought I really loved you and I think I still am. It just pains me to see us.. like this. But what to do? I am so tired.