Oh my.. I feel so lost and sad now... when Cheuling broke the news to me, I couldn't help but break down crying.. Apart from the news, its like everything else is going so badly.. why.. what's happening.. I can't seem to be positive.. my mind is so completely blank these days I don't know whats wrong with me... now there s more fear and anxiety.. I just can't calm myself even though I tried hard to pray...

Just got to know that Grandpa has intestine cancer.. the doctor said that he has to go for operation but there is a high risk because he is already physically weak.. The thought of the possibility that he may leave me anytime just hurts.. I know he's old already.. but still, I am so afraid to have people leaving me and to think that I may not get to see him or talk to him again for the rest of my life.. It's just hard to digest such a cruel reality...

-falter

I dont want him to leave us..