END OF PROMO

Talking to Adnaan now.. he made me tear.. =(

Thank you so so so so so much. He promised to teach me exam skills =) but there was more.

I was just so overwhelmed with these negative feelings.. promos didn't go well for me.. don't want to say how bad it was because everyone freaking say so...zzz

Used to just struggling to maintain results. now is trying to keep up with the minimal standard, not even talking about passing.. F.

yeah. can't believe that this thing is driving me to being so uncivilised. I gotto admit it.....

being here makes me feel so stupid.. i hardly feel so lowly about myself. if you know me well, i am ego, so do my dignity. and the fact that i've given in to my egoness.. it may just mean something.

I hate this promotional exam thing.. and this stupid OCIP.. yes. you've driven away all my happiness and cheerful-self.. but its no one s fault. I chose the path. and yet, i am trying to run away from it now.. blame myself, seriously.

and, can't imagine myself retaining.. it really puts me into myriads of thoughts.. what am i really good at? should I just leave this place?.. hais.

yeah. so much worries. so much setback..

Adnaan's words were harch at times.. but he s right.
however, being rational is just so hard....... perhaps unrealistic..?


whatever that is. For now, I ll leave these shits alone. and ENJOY MYSELF TO THE MAX till next week.........................


Today, went to East Coast Park with Denise, Jo, Yiai, Pamela, Joyce, Nat, Mark, Hankuan and Adnaan..

camwhoring.. but i was obviously not that into it today...zzz

after that went to have Suki Sushi Buffet for nearly two and a half hours! Ate A LOT.. so full until we took turn to go out shopping then come back eat again.. =)

Eating makes people forget unhappy things. so eat more! =)

Took a few pictures... the rest am waiting for Jolene to upload.. she better upload nice pic of me...........zzz

hmm.. can't deny that jolene is cute =) if I were a guy, I would probably fall for her..monmentarily perhaps... haha, guess she's super happy when she reads this.

Just loves to irritate her. so if you angry next time just read this post again =)

Greedy plump denise and pamela..

the other table... the guys are simply pure carnivores.. ate so much raw fish and salmons. yuck. i tried 1/3 of a small piece and me and jolene felt like puking... =(

THIS, is our table =D the waitress attempted to clear the plates but jolene stopped her. haha she wanna stack high high -.-'' childish.. zzz

Overall, the food was niceeeeeeee and damn filling. that was my lunch and dinner. we ate from 2 plus to nearly 5.. talked a lot of craps.. and camwhores... not my day for that.



yeah. thats all for today.
love my class..=) though they've split into groups.. I don't feel restricted most of the time..

Being myself with friends are hard.. I don't know why. part of me feels restricted, one way or another.. even with someone you're close. I just find it hard.

Being close and not feeling restricted are two completely different things..
and till today, there are only few people who I can behave like myself almost entirely..

and they are..hmm my dearest cheuling, BFF Ningli.. =) , Xintian.. Yiyan.. Yongxi, Gwen, Fendy..Rachel yong.. =) oh, and benny!! (so happy cause' he s coming back from melborne at the end of oct!!!! =DDDDDDDDDD)
and last but not least, the gang which I hang out with today =) though they each have completely different character.. somehow we just get along pretty well.. the chemistry we have.. its just different and I really like that =)

Hope such relationship stays forever. =)


That's all for this post.

P.S I am upset for Gladys. =(