Fear.
Seems like I have been feeling this these days..

have been failing tests. note the letter 's'. and promos coming in a week time.. it gets me real upset and worried..
Couldn't help but broke down crying in front of cynthia today.. It's like a form of release i guess.. really couldn't take it. and Cyn told me that she cried ytd too. I was half-believing..
This pressure s really suffocating me..
I'm really afraid..

sometimes I really doubt my capability.. really.. it feels as if I don't belong to this school. hais.


knowing that nobody can help and you re all alone fighting the battle yourself.. this feeling of helplessness.. yet you can't do anything but to chiong as hard as you can.. and the outcome is unpredictable and perhaps pessimistic?

I really really feel like screaming........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

note: thank you for your concern but try not to comment on this post. thanks.