Sigh, not supposed to blog now. but i can't help it..

I am feeling so sad now. feel like crying..

Apart from exam stress, zzzzz

Just had a 5minutes "long" conversation with my dearest cheuling in msn.. can you believe it? that 5minutes was considered long..

Ever since june holiday when we got separated.. we didn't really have time to talk. not at all..

I miss her so so so so so much.. she's like the other half of my soul. we are just so close together since the day I was born? we played and fought and confided in each other for our whole life...

and now.. we are all so busy with study.. living in two different continents... feeling so segregated from her..

that 5 minutes was simply to find out how lives have been for the two of us and we realised that everything is so different now..

we just miss the days when we caught the crabs along the river.. miss the cooking sesison we had using milo tin.. running away from home and went around visiting neighbours.. playing kite at the field.. i'm proud to have that kinda childhood because most of my friends don't have it.. yet having such memories hurt sometimes..

after that.. she told me that she is having a relationship now. i knew that guy. oh well.. it makes me happy to hear that because he's really a nice person.. but then.. part of myself feel kinda crushed..knowing that its inevitable.. it feels as if the other part of my soul has left me.. hais..

yeah she told me not to be sad and she still loves me and i know it.. but its just different now..

"best" thing was, she cried after talking to me.. cause' she misses me too much. and then.. the conevrsation was forced to end because we all have our own stuff to do now..

so much for being together and then...

5 years down the road we may still be as busy.

I'm upset. again. pardon my emo posts but i can't help it =(