I just realized that I have nothing to blog recently.
Sometimes I wish to write something down but in the end i forgot what i wanted to write. What's wrong with me hur?

Mum just gave me two thick Chinese books, and she asked me to finish it within this school vacation. The books are about some philosophy related to my religion. I still have 3 story books and a chinese story book liao zhai to finish. No time to touch on that but computer. Well, I guess I should control myself these days.

Today school was boring and hell unpleasant.

Firstly, we received our final result of the year 2006. I did good. And I am happy that I am actually helping the government to save money because they dont have to give me any scholarship again. Can't be helped. Its only for Singaporeans. lol.

After that we went for some lecture about Sexuality Reproduction. I watched the process of abortion, Its really cruel and malicious. and you know what? I started to realize that humans are the most unhuman being on Earth. Because they are the only beings that know how to use this kinda way to eliminate themselves. If you have a heart, how could you bear seeing the lively cute tiny baby being crushed and squashed to death? HELLO?! We are the same kind for god's sake! The babies did nothing to harm us yet we treated him like some non-living things when they haven't even came out to have a gasp of fresh air?

So much of wanting to stay on (thought to be) beautiful Earth and live with you, yet some stupid brainless women just make up their mind to go for abortion... If I were the child in some stupid women's wombs, I swear I would not forgive them, till my spirit is destroyed.

You created me, then you killed me. nice one.

Okay, enough of venting my anger on those stupid women again. My stomach was churning when i was watching it. and i almost vomitted. gosh.

Next, we went to present our IPW project. It was boring but relaxing. I listened to some really nice songs and enjoyed the air-conditioned room too. haha. He was just behind me. Well, I believe that the feelings have gradually gone but still, I could hear my heart pounding faster than the usual rate. Anyway I am quite confident that you're not the one. You can't and musn't be the one. I fervently hope. Char said he might leave, and if he were to leave, what can I do? -sigh-


After that we went to clean our classroom. Our classroom was damn dirty. and at the same time I received news that Denise is migrating to Australia next year. And Jared might be leaving TK too. Kristin will be leaving to NUs too.

Do you guys hate TK so much that you have to leave at no time?
Never mind. I know you have your reasons. I can't decide for you. But my heart aches terribly and I start to wonder how my future secondary school life would be...

To know that crying is meaningless, grumbling is a waste of energy. I am utterly speechless at this moment.

Go on doing whatever you want. And I would be your guardian angel.
Leave me if you must.
Hurt me if you want.
I would let it be my memory instead of emptiness.

Love you.