Dead, I am getting 'emo' again. Really feel like crying now.
Everything is in a huge mess, everything is so fast, so fast that I can't catch up with their pace, so fast that I don't even have time to give a second break, so fast that everything just went wrong and turned upside down....

How I wish that I could just scream my lungs off like nobody cares.
How I wish that I could just cry in petulance and nobody complains.
How I wish that I could just drown myself dead without feeling anymore pain.
How I wish that I could just fall or fly forever at the speed of light without stopping, without even have to look back...

How I wish and wish and wish again... but those wishes will never be fulfilled. Is that too much to ask for? Why?! It is not demanding. For I don't expect anybody to do anything. I JUST WANT A PLACE, just a place to settle, to GET OUT of here, to feel nothing..

I don't see the reasons to wait any longer. Neither do I see an excuse to keep those memories as real and true as possible. Everytime, I would just wait. Even those minutes of interaction never seem to happen in real life, not a single word. Waiting for you, will be like waiting for the rain to come in the hot desert. No point yearning for you to ask when it never happens before.



Disappointment, and more disappointments.
Let it be? Tell me what to do..