FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK .... aarrgghhh............... I want to scream my lungs off! @#$%




Pardon me, I seldom misbehave like this in my post. It is uncivilized, I KNOW. but now, I just can't control my temper...

I am already in a bloody hell bad mood. I don't know why... Maybe you can call that Mood Swing. Whatever it is.

I was bored, bad mood. Then suddenly this fucking guy talked to me in MSN. Well, I don't know how the hell he is in the list of my Msn messenger. I don't know him. He asked me to introduce myself and asked me questions like age, school, whether I have a boyfriend before. I answered him, " nope". And he asked why. I said I wasn't interested in anyone yet.

Till then my temper was still controllable. And I was bored. So I chatted with him.

THEN, here came the fucking irritating part of the conversation. He asked me why again.. He said that some of his friends, though younger than me, already lost their virginity... What the FUCKING HELL was he implying??? I was really infuriated by the way he described his friends. Well, since I was/am in a really bad mood, it really pissed me off. How could his friends do such thing? Never mind if they are doing IT with their boyfriends..... but they are just randomly doing IT and fucking hell heck care.... Not to mention that they are underage............. OMG.........

After that, I was sooooo enraged that I actually started chanting vulgarities....... but I was calm in the conversation. I deliberately made my words sarcastic for him. Calling them wild animals, inhuman, unworthy and so on... I know he might feel hurt but i DON'T GIVE A DAMN.

Someone asked me to just block him. Well, I didn't, not until I finished my scolding... i was too engrossed with the conversation into fighting for human right that I actually enjoyed what I was doing..... though my bad mood did worsened by what he said..

WORST, he kissed and @#$@!!% ..... a girl who he just met...... just like that.... I am utterly impressed.. I thought I really should have kneeled down and paid him that tiny little respect for his impressive act.......

Urrgg... never mind. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I know these kinda things are common nowadays and maybe others might think that I am making a fuss out of little trifles..... I am just sooooooooooo TAK BOLEH TAHAN... That should be the only right words that I can use for my mood now......





I feel like crushing the things around me... The feelings are unbearable. Its like you're lost, you don't know what you are doing and you don't know whats the purpose of doing it.... and you feel angry by the people around you easily....

SIANZ.