I hate to be accused of something I didn't do.
I hate to live in the world of hypocrisy.
I hate things that go agaisnt my will.
I despise and ignore people who I think are stupid and childish and RETARDED, am I wrong?

My temper is getting out of control. My heart no longer seems to have much capacity for any forgiveness. I am naive. I am ego. I am purely stubborn. I know that. But I can't change a thing. I know all these are bad. I know I should change myself for the better. What on earth is happening to me??

I am trying..



Today supposed to have TK Road Run at East Coast Park. However, due to rain, it was cancelled. My friends and I went to eat pasta and k-box. It was fun! But I really had to control myself from spending money... =(


Anyway, there is one thing that i must blog about, randomly. It's about those people who smoke. Again, I despise those people who smoke. You see, its a bad habit to despise people. People may think you think highly of yourself. They called it Ego. But come on, smokers are bad. It's a known fact all over world.

Today when I was on my way to the K-box and back home, there were people smoking and I smelled it. It really irritated me and I almost had the urge to just walk to them and shout to them not to smoke, and if possible, whack them with all my strength. I wish I could. Really. Those selfish stupid idiotic killers.. They are trying to kill me!

Sometimes, we try to be kind to them. We tell them that smoking is not good for health. Smoking can cause you cancer and whole lots of diseases and illness that can lead to death. Those who breathe in cigarrette smoke frmo the surrounding will take in even higher percentage of those harmful gasseus... We educate them. We put up advertisements about its bad effect and consequences, trying to convey our earnest message and stimulate their brain cells to change them.. But they just don't take our advice. Well, they think its cool eh? Sucking in smoke and breathing it out like a dragon hur? Wait till they see their lungs rotting they would think its even cooler. To the worst, some think it's attractive to smoke. Especially girls. OMG. I can't stand them. They smell like shit and look like shit. It's something I will never understand. Maybe their definition of "cool" is different from mine. I wonder how they manage to get boyfriends?? Well, of course they can. Their boyfriends smoke too.

Advice to girls who don't smoke : Don't get boyfriends who smoke. How can you stand kissing a guy's mouth which smells and breathes out smoke that can choke you to death?? How can stand touching and licking a guy's decayed teeth full of bacteria with your tongue??? How can you stand being with a boyfriend who smells most of the time?? Lastly, how can you stand to have a boyfriend who wants to kill you silently yet tells you he loves you everyday? Well, in this case, be smart and dump him before he really kills you.


People who don't give a damn about their health, I really despise those people. People who don't give a damn about their health, as well as others' health, are people who deserved to be despised and abandoned.

*COUGH*









My dream, seems really far away.
A good school, a career that I want.. I have been dreaming about it everyday.

Faults that i have made, how am I going to make amends?
A lie causes more than enough harm to myself. End it fast and clean.
I shouldn't have done that. Arrghh.