March Holiday! Finally!

so what.... the amount of homework given by the teachers is so much that holiday doesn't make much a difference. Maybe we should resume school lessons after all??? No.....

My result for CA1 is ... hmm..... the worst result I have ever gotten in my life. I just feel this way. I didn't get any As. And my L1R5 is really high. Well, who to blame? I know I didn't work hard enough. It's over so just let it be.


Guess what is this thing? A brownish lump.... You can never believe that it is actually a Brownie. Well, my first attempt to bake Brownie!! Together with assistant Yinglin and Joan Chef. Supervised by Cynthia. By its appearance, it looks rather disgusting..... hmm.. but trust me, it tastes delicious! (with undissolved sugars and guess what I found? Egg shell! LOL! ) =)

This Brownie was made to celebrate Benny and Fatin's birthday. It turned out Fatin didn't get to eat because she couldn't make it for the Sentosa gathering yesterday.... =(

Are we playing hide-and-seek?? I tried to tempt her to let go of her hand so that I could take her picture, but to no avail. So shy -.-

HOMEWORK! zzz
I was browsing through my picture file. and I just realised I really have lots and lots and lots of pictures... One file is named Masks. Inside there is many pictures of the different designs of masks. Well, I used to get obsessed over this mask thingy. But isn't it beautiful? I wish I could wear a really nice one....

A bizarre picture.

http://www.victoriafrances.es/web.html

I have this website saved in my computer for long. Well, I was kinda tempted to visit it again. The website is seriously eerie. It's really weird. I admire some of those pictures in the website, maybe they are really "art"..... and creative, but in a way its mysterious, evil, insane, sad, lonely... and maybe scary. One of the pictures sorta depicts a woman lying at the graveyard at night, shedding red bloody tears, one shows an incomplete doll sewed in a disfigured form... Overall, I was too afraid to see more of those pictures so I closed the website... it really sent goosebumps to me... Despite the fear and eerieness, I love the music and the website.... somehow. I wonder what on Earth the artist was thinking when she created these pictures...

I have not been talking to my parents these days. I don't know why. Ever since that small incident, I just don;t know what to talk to them.. Its weird. We were so close.. all of a sudden, we didn't talk at all, for the whole day, for how many days? Maybe a week. There seems to be an invisible barrier between us. And I am too tired to get things back to normal. How? I find myself rather strange. I don't know how to talk to people, to them. I just can't do it. I yearn for a change, but there is seriously nothing I can do. I can't be bothered anymore. I love them. And I know they care for me. But things just go wrong... How I wish I could talk to them now.. But words just stuck in my throat. Nothing ever comes out. sigh. What's the matter with you, jinyi? Whats happening on earth?

Things that were once my goals have become my duty and daily routine. Determination that is so easily driven has changed to burden. Now what am I holding on to?

I seriously don't know.