Song. NPCC. pictures. Results

tittle : Now and Forever
artist : Richard Marx

Whenever Im weary
From the battles that raged in my head
You made sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way, but still you
Seem to understand
Now & forever,
I will be your woman

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
Im holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
Ill try to show you
Each and every way I can
Now & forever,
I will be your woman

Now I can rest my worries
And always be sure
That I wont be alone, anymore
If Id only known you were there
All the time,
All this time. . .

Until the day the ocean
Doesnt touch the sand
Now & forever
I will be your woman

This song is so sweet and lovely.. I almost cried when I listened to it today, though its not entirely a sad song.. -.- but well, don't you feel this aching pain in the heart as you listen to it? I did. How weird. Maybe its just due to the beauty of music and words that play with the fragile hearts of humans.

I got this photos from my aunt. haha. so cute.

Well, they are cute. yeah. But on the other side, they look so pitiful lah.. being prisoned in a smal cage, where they are supposed to belong to the natural habitat of theirs... (I am referring to the monkey) It just shows the bad side of human. We will do whatever we can to get the things we want regardless of what will happen to the others.. RIGHT?

Many always say that animals such as lions, sharks.. they are cruel and heartless because they kill the small ones so visciously and fiercely. But well, who are the most heartless ones in fact? Look at the number of endangered animals and the condition of today's natural habitat and you'll know the answer.

Yesterday was the last official npcc training for us NCOs 2008.. Well, I hardly have words to describe the day. Just that, it wasn't perfect but quite smooth-going.

I would miss the trainings I had as a cadet of npcc.. The days to be with my squad, to be with my friends.. The memories are bitter and sweet.. Memories that made you break down so much.. memories that made you laugh so much with pure joy... Well.. I am seriously speechless to describe how I feel..

but the two things which I am sure to say are that, I have learnt a lot..in both values and skills and leadership.. and I have made friends. These make everything worthwhile...

Sec3s.. they gave Yongxi, Audy and I a VERY VERY big card and a box of donuts.. I shall post photos of it later to show off. Haha.

Honestly, I was really touched and shocked when I received it.. I didn't expect such a thing to come from them.. well.. once again, no words to describe how I really feel.. I just feel so so so sad that I am leaving them now..

There is just so much hope for them to be good after so much of what had been done to them.. They have been improving a lot.. but there is still so much to worry.. so much to fear..

Can they be united? Can they show a good role model to the juniors? Are their friendships stronger enough to overcome whatever obstacle they may encounter?

I pray and wish them all the best for their upcoming june camp.. =)

and once again, I really have to thank them for the card and their last hentak song that we gave.. it was so freaking loud and solid!

Lastly, I shall end my post with a bad news regarding my MYE results.

My results are BAD. Real bad. I don't feel like typing out the exact scores I get.

It just feels so demoralising and disappointing.. I know that I can't blame anyone but myself for such horrible result.. Have I worked hard enough? The answer is obvious even if I insist on a Yes. For the result simply reflects on how much I have prepared for this...

So much for planning, but it didn't work out the way it is. So much for thinking that you could do it, but no. you didn't. Its seriously pointless to grumble, to cry over spilt milk, to wallow into self-pity. Come on. Look at YOU in the mirror. Contemplate yourself.. Do you even fit to be entitled to such a result that you once dreamed of? You don't even surpass the basic criteria and expectation..

Stop deceiving yourself for something which you're not capable of. Stop being so STUPID and SILLY. Stop dreaming so much and get yourself started to work like a machine now..