I did foresee something like this to happen. but I thought if we could support each other, fight hard for it, no matter how hard the situation is we can still move on, together.

However, it's wrong. and i knew it. but why is it so hard to share the same vision and hang on till the end?

I thought we could avoid such decision. i thought after so long.. we can just overcome it. but time proves that something like this must happen. and you just have to struggle to come up with an answer no matter how painful it is. it's as if you have to choose to save either of your parents when both are about to die.

I am so afraid. it seems like nothing much is going to change but deep down, it's so significant.

it feels quite useless to ask for help but you ask because you are so lost and helpless, despite knowing that they will just give you the same advice and perhaps they don't even understand.

Honestly, why? why so afraid? why so uncertain? why can't just ignore? why just take it simple? why wrong? i did nothing to hurt anyone.